"Somebody That I Used To Know" - Entry yang kosong "inti"nya...

While driving back to the office after I had my lunch at home..

Tuning to Mix.fm and by that time this song was on air...

Not a new song.. It's been quite a while..

I even hummed this song few months back..

But today, by listening to the lyrics closely..

I can feel my heart crack and shatter bit by bit...

Not good for my Lil' One.. (Jangan jadi penyedih ye Sayang..)

But, somehow rather.. Whatever things happened between us..

Things, people, atmosphere..

We just can't be such a denial person.. Right?

But, how strong u can take it?

Bottle up feelings..

Keep quiet, sit in a corner..

Feel the lump in your throat..

It hurts, you know..

And literally u feel like u are exactly as same as a timing bomb..

*sigh*

Someday.. yeap...

Someday.. To each and everyone...

What we had been buried inside will be spilled out...

As if like peeling an onion..

Skin.. Piece by piece..

** For those who read this entry, i know u know this song..

Understand the lyrics.. yea?**

(Tiada kaitan dengan homo-sapiens yang masih hidup ataupun yang telah meninggal dunia.. Harap maklum.)

Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
Part of me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Somebody
(I used to know)
Somebody
(Now you're just somebody that I used to know)

(I used to know)
(That I used to know)
(I used to know)
Somebody

Till my fingers meet the keyboard again..
** Hari ni macam ada rasa nak duduk kat tepi sudut je... Tsk~ Tsk~ Tsk~



Nine Days to Ramadhan 1433

Ramadhan is just around the corner..
Dah ganti puasa ke belum???

As for myself, recently there is one particular question that keep on popping in my head..
"Mama mampu tak puasa penuh tahun ni?"

Memandangkan nafsu makan membuak-buak..
Kejap² nak makan..
Kejap² rasa need to munch something to quench the food lust..
Kejap² rasa dahaga sangat, thus kena minum bertogok² air.. (pastu berpuluh² kali check-in kat toilet)

Well, i just hope that i'm strong enough to go through this coming fasting month...
And.. praying that My Lil' One will give full co-operation so takdelah banyak tak puasa pulak nanti..
Kang lebih kurang macam datang period every month pulak.. Where's the privelege of being pregnant?
Am I right?

As for last year, Enchek Suami just transferred to Maxis Sunway Contact Centre (SCC)..
Dengan shifts tunggang-langgang...
Memang down gila.. most of my fasting days terpaksa berbuka puasa sorang² dekat rumah...
If i'm lucky enough, Enchek Suami dapat off days on weekdays maka dapatlah berbuka sama-sama..
*boleh kira dgn jari berapa kali dapat berbuka puasa dengan dia*
Ada yang kami berbuka berdua je.. Ada berbuka dengan either one side of our family.. Ada yang berbuka dengan kawan²..

Nevertheless, together with this entry, i enclose some of the pics that i managed to snap during last Ramadhan... (SO KETINGGALAN ZAMAN LA KO NI MARINA!!!)
Tak banyak mana pun.. Just Iftar with some friends at Satay Station, Setiawangsa and Steamboat at Taman Dagang, Ampang... Feast for the eyes, i would say... Enjoice~

Main dish; of course la Satay... Tapi kuah takde sambal macam Satay Samuri..

                               

Mee Rebus.. (sekali pandang macam laksa pun ada...)

The beverages; Enchek Suami minum tembikai laici and mine was kedondong asam boi

The lines of the Board of Directors of PIBG Clan.. (Yusry tak datang)

The First Ladies.. (and the One and Only.. Jangan ingat kata First, ada hati nak ada Second, Third and Forth pulak)

The miniatures... :)

** ALL ABOVE PICS WERE TAKEN AT SETIAWANGSA.. WITH THE PIBG CLAN **

Err.. actually i forgot the name of this steamboat restaurant.. But, it's located at Taman Dagang, Ampang

Adi and Fazuin (Husband and Wife)

Tini and Epul

Myself and Enchek Suami

Love this girl.. Same batch masa joined Maxis (29th May 2006) and she's still there.. Setia gila kot dengan Maxis!!!

Alhamdulillah~

The girls and I

Enchek Suami with the ice-cream.. His dessert..

Well.. I believe that's for now... Insyaallah tahun ni punya Iftar events takdelah lagging entry nya macam this one.. Tengoklah... (Tak convincing langsung...)

Till next yeah..

Till my fingers meet the keyboard again.. Tadaloo~

Four months and a half (The Journey...)

Well... dah half year had past...
And proven that, I AM NOT A CONSISTENT WRITER...
So, basically too many things happened for the half year of 2012...

The biggest thing happened and still happening is...
I AM GETTING BIGGER..

While i'm typing this entry, another living creature is growing inside my womb..
He/she is at 18 weeks old... masih cinonet...
Alhamdulillah...
Sepanjang 4 bulan setengah mengandung ni, takde teringin benda yang bukan²...
Alahan pun kurang..
I vomitted twice.. (sekali masa pagi sebab minum teh ais "angin" and another one masa gosok gigi..)
Sakit kepala mmg BANYAK KALI...

For the first two months, my mood swing was totally terrible...
Kesian Enchek Suami... I'm so sorry Sayang...
I shouted, i scolded, i threw iced tea at u... Astaghfirullah...~
And how can i be more grateful when u still keep up with your patience when facing me in that phase?
Thank you for that...

After the "wild" syndrome faded away...
Another syndrome coming in..
This one still keep on going actually.. *smile*
Menggedik tak sudah..
Nak manja la.. Nak tido kena tepuk² la... Nak Enchek Suami sapukan bio-oil hari² (tak nak sapu sendiri!!).. Nak ngendeng².. (It's a good thing kan? Daripada aku dok meghampuih²...)
Extra and over sensetive pun ye.. Jadi bertambah cengeng..
Sikit² cebik.. Mesti baby gedik nanti.. Haih~

And i got few breakouts.. Geeeeeez~ Yet i'm still glad because it's not as bad as my other friends who have worse skin problem during their pregnancy...
TAPI... Mama pun nak comel² jugak hokkay.. bukan baby aje... Ini tidak adil!! tsk~ tsk~

Sides, i crave for few things too...
As for now, everything that i wished for had been fulfilled by Enchek Suami except for these two; Nasi Beriani Restoran Insaf kat Jalan TAR tu and Taufufa dalam tempat kukus besi kat Petaling Street...
Bukan susah pun kan?
Just masa takde and pujuk rayu aku masih belum memberi kesan yang mendalam kat Enchek Suami... Hahahaha~ takpe.. i got another 4 and a half months to do all the seductions, allures and whatever i got to do in order to get those things...

Well, what else that i need to write eh?
I'll try my level best to keep this blog alive..
Especially in my condition right now..
At least, i have something to read and ponder about the journey of my pregnancy.. (sepanjang 4 bulan setgh ni takde snap pic apa pun..
So, till my fingers meet the keyboard again... (to be frank, till i have some mood to write again.. hee hee)
buhbye~

Credit Worth... Which one are you???

Tau apa maknanya??
Inilah REAL life kita seharian...
yang hari² kita hadap dalam sedar tak sedar...

Macam² manusia kat atas muka bumi ni..
ada yang tegar dengan motto diri "biar papa, asal bergaya"...
pakai baju semua branded, gadget tak nak mengalah.. semua yang latest hi-tech...
tapi rupa²nya berhutang... no cash.. berhabuk.. credit worth dah masuk kumpulan negatif..

i'm not talking about those who already been titled as million/billionaire..
dan ternyata mereka itu adalah peniaga..
jarang kita yg sebagai pekerja, kuli atau hamba korporat ni dapat title tu..
paling kurang pun dapat hidup senang atau pun sedikit mewah berbanding dengan mereka yg dari golongan sederhana...

politik.. satu isu besar yg nak dibincangkan.. so, kita narrowkan sedikit ke tajuk politik pejabat..
i bet, semua yg kerja dalam ofis, kena and tahu sangat² benda ni..
seriously, politik ofis mmg macam gampang!!!
kalau kau pandai bodek dan kipas bontot confirm kedudukan terjamin...
terjamin maksud aku dari segi kenaikan pangkat, kenaikan gaji, dapat save banyak duit (sebab bos selalu belanja), dapat join functions yg literally most of the staff lain tak dapat invitation due to the perspective of intimidation...
kiss my ass you apple polishing whore!!!

berbalik pada credit worth, tgk saja pada gambar di atas... siapa yg paling berduit sebenarnya...
fikir² kan lah dan selamat beramal...
sesungguhnya rezeki yang halal itu lebih baik dari menjatuhkan orang lain..

Ini Tidak Adil..

Twilight - Breaking Dawn Part 1 dah sparkled in your cinema...

dammit! bilanya aku dapat pergi tgk ni???

nak ajak Enchek Suami, mmg takkan dapat la...
rasanya jatuh sangat ego dia kalau ajak tgk Twilight... WTH!
ni la masalah lelaki² yang rasa tak "jantan" kalau pergi tgk Twilight..
sebab?
1) cerita penuh dengan cinta².. lovey dovey
2) kepercayaan karut katanya vampire and warewolf ni... (dude, mcm la korg tak baca cerita dongeng kan? yet, some of you still believes in myth.. HELLO!!!)
3) rasa macam takde telor tgk "anak² ikan" yang jambu dalam movie tersebut...

fair ke??
you balls heret/ajak/paksa/racun korang punya gf/isteri/scandal tgk cerita² perang, bunuh sana-sini, action packed bagai semua...
nak jaga hati punya pasal, kaum hawa ni turutkan jugak...
tapi bila time korang, minta meneman.. macam² alasan korang kasi...
di mana keadilannya?? *ye... aku bengang*

Tengah Cari Idea...

I'll be back..

My Fear...

it's the 3rd day of my granddad lost...
and i miss him so...

seriously, lagi dekat majlis perkahwinan...
makin besar dugaan yg datang...
7 oktober 2009 (rabu 7.20 pm)...
aku kehilangan bakal bapak mertua aku...

sejak dari hari isnin (5 okt) bapak dah start sakit...
sebelum ni ingatkan bapak ulser perut.. cuz dia buang air besar berdarah..
bila pergi klinik, doktor suruh refer pergi hospital..
then masa tu la segala penyakit datang...

tapi aku bersyukur sgt-sgt...
waktu bapak nazak..
adik beradik tunang aku semua ada di samping bapak...
sekurang-kurangnya bapak nampak anak-anak ada sekeliling dia sampailah hembusan nafas terakhir...

ramai yang hadir time bapak dikebumikan..
ramai yang sedekahkan doa, al-fatihah dan yassin untuk bapak..
semoga bapak ditempatkan dgn golongan mereka yang beriman...

dan, pada ahad lepas jam 8.20 pm...
atuk yg kini berada di pekan baru, padang indonesia telah meninggalkan kami...
atuk dah berumur 91 tahun...
sudah sampai masa beliau untuk dijemput ilahi..
mesti ramai tertanya-tanya..
kenapa atuk engkau kat indonesia?

jawapan:-
atuk aku dah kahwin dengan orang sana setelah kematian isteri pertama (nenek aku)..
beliau pernah berkata yg beliau mahu mati dia tempat lahirnya...
ye.. atuk aku lahir di seberang..
beliau datang ke tanah melayu bersama dgn datuknya dan bermastautin di sini sejak umur beliau 4 tahun...

apa yang aku fikirkan sekarang ialah...
in order diri aku dan tunang bersiap sedia untuk di ijab kabul..
dan masuk ke dalam keluarga baru masing-masing..
setiap seorg dari kami kehilangan seorang dari salah seorang ahli keluara telah pun pergi...
seolah-olah, setiap satu dari diri kami adalah sebagai pengganti bagi mereka yang telah mengadap Allah...

ye.. aku cukup sedar...
Allah Maha Besar...
Allah Maha Adil..
dan sesungguhnya...
Allah Maha Mengetahui...